unhappy ~

im so unhappy these days ;; i feel like me and my boyfriend hardly communicate anymore && i feel like as if doesnt need me in his life or he doesnt love me anymore?
i have no idea why im feeling like this
its like whenever we dont talk, i feel like nothing else would complete me
i love him too much, i dnt want to lose him
&&im hoping he understands what im trying to say
*sighz*
x

ah so hard

sometimes u feel hurt, cos one of ur loved ones said something but u dnt know whether they said it cos they were mad or if they meant it?its even worst when they tell ur bestfriend, and knowing that your bestfriend is keeping it from u, cos u might feel devo?but then u know, ur bestfriend is gna tell u one day about what had happened...well my bestfriend spoke up yesterday on what my loved one said to her.&as i read it i felt hurt and useless as tears jst start to build up in my eyesi really dont want to make it a big dealbut i cant help it, cos it just hurts mesometimes i feel like i should pretend that my loved one didnt say that and just go with the flow... but sometimes i get so angry and feel like talking it out.but if im talking it out, i dont know if i'll hurt my loved one.and even if my loved one had said that one week before, maybe it is really coming true?cos we hardly talk now, or show how much we love eachother?as each day goes by, i realise how much i love him and build up feelings for him more and more... i really dnt ever wna lose him.even if i did, i would still like him to be by my side as a friend.but im so confused & i dnt even know if he still loves me?
x

what am i meant to do now?

to michael;
if you dont want to talk to me now, is it even gna solve anything?
like seriously, if you dnt wna talk for a while then what is the point of it, when you dnt wna solve shit all ?
and what the fcuk is the situation about anyways?
cos leaving the siuation like this, just makes it harder for us both.
but if you cant respect in what im trying to say, then i dont even know what you want to do.

thanks for reading.
xxxx

random...

well, i am blogging cos mykool told me too "==
LOL!
omg i dnt even know what to write about.
thanks to mykool, i have to think hard xD

erm, well today i went to school :D
i had fun, camwhoring with my asians.
jessie that girl is addicted to her sexy asian ... jae joong xD
&&then she named us all 5 asians...
Jessie is Jaejoong (of course)
Dalena is Yuhno/Yunho (i cant spell)
Fiona is Jinsu (erm idk its english name)
Tadyana is Mickey (idk its korean's name haha)
& I am the baby of the group :D Changmin ~ MAX hahaha!
&she said were DBSK xD yeahhs.. weird child.
god how random!

anyways my exams are coming up next week "==
wonder how i would go :D
hahaha

oh & is this enough Mykool?
haha i have nothing else to say,
except ilu (:

<3

life;;

life has it's ups and downs. it could be the best day of your life and the saddest.
this month, i guess many things had happened. i lost one of my bestfriends over something i trust em with... but now she's not really part of my life, i cant be friends with someone who i dont trust anymore. but i guess i also found the right guy.. and i may have said that to every guy i've fell for.. but idk about this time, but im gna trust him and see what happens. (:

anywhoo school tomorrow :D
im actually excited to go haha, i know verrry weird.
anyways.
latahhz.
<3